Back from the Dead

Talk about a hiatus. It's been almost 2 months since I've posted an entry. Certainly not for lack of want, mind you. Guess it just hasn't been a high priority lately. Thought I'd post an entry even though most of my readers have probably left me for dead.

The past 6-7 weeks have been an absolute whirlwind. My head is still spinning. What started as our somewhat semi-annual trip back to the States has ended with plans to shift back here permanently. While Aakash will travel back and forth between here and India, Laykha and I will once again settle into life in the States.

For some reason, while visiting family, both Aakash and I were feeling a little more homesick than usual. We both agreed that, with this trip, it was going to be harder to go back to India - we both wanted to stay. Having a little one has changed our perspective on many things.

On the very day we were to head back to Bangalore, Aakash threw an idea out there. We would head back to Michigan, but instead of catching our connection on to India, we'd remain in the States. Aakash would travel back and forth regularly to work on the business, and I would find a job here in the States. It was crazy -no, make that insane - but I went for it.

So, here we are, some 4 weeks later, still in the States. It has been comforting, fun, crazy and stressful all at the same time. While I was hoping my company would let me remain with them after shifting back to the States, it's a "no go". Can't really blame them - they'd be getting the same employee at nearly 3 times the cost. That means I am once again in the job market. I really would love to take on the role of full-time stay at home Mommy, but we still need a source of stable income.

For the time being, we are staying with family and living out of suitcases. In anticipation of all of the goodies from the States I'd be lugging back to India, I brought the bare minimum of clothes. Thought I'd save the room for all of the "comforts of home" I'd be bringing back with me. Consequently, I've been wearing the same 3 pairs of pants for the past 2 months.

Staying with family has been wonderful but challenging. I am definitely one who needs to have my own space and likes to have my own things. No matter how many times I'm told "our home is your home", unless it truly is my home, I have a difficult time feeling "at home". I'm hoping that whatever job I end up with, it is enough to sustain a place here in the States as well as our place in Bangalore. Regardless, it sure is good to be back.